Let me give it another shot.

Today is the first day of February :) Yay! New month once again.

Anyway, this is just for kicks.

#1- It's nice knowing that you guys will always have my back. Despite the fact that we're not as close as we once were, we still know how to keep it real. There are no other people I'd rather call my best friends than you three. Best of wishes to all of you in the future. I love my sisters at heart(:

#2- You're an amazing friend. We can talk for hours about pointless topics, and you'll be there when I need someone to talk to. I know I never gave you the proper chance to tell me your feelings in the past, but both of us know that our relationship wasn't meant to be that way.

#3- What happened to us? I feel like it's utterly pointless to try to fix something that's been shattered into a million pieces. I know it sounds harsh, but I guess I can't turn back time. I know you've been having personal struggles lately, and I wish I was the one you were talking to about them, but... times have changed.

#4- There's something I see in you... but I just can't grasp it quite yet.

#5- You two are complicated - it's the truth. But love always prevails, and I'm glad that the both of you manage to find a way back into each other's lives. Lets just hope it's for the better:]

#6- To the very few whose company I enjoy and treasure: thank you for making my high school years something to remember. The best part of each day at school is being to laugh and have fun with you guys :D

#7- I can't imagine how hard it is for you to mentally deal with this personal issue of yours.

#8- SERIOUSLY, learn from your mistakes. I don't wanna see you get yourself into deep **** over your personal desires.

#9 - We've come quite a long way haven't we? I'm not ready to stop yet, are you? <3


LOL. I have ADD. I can't concentrate. I'll be back for more.

:]

Yay or nay?

I swear I have the worst case of senioritis EVER.
I seriously need to stop signing on to Facebook and just go on the ultimate FB Diet ever.
I. MUST. GIVE. MY. PASSWORD. TO. SOMEBODY. NAO.

I should make a bet with myself..or with anyone interested..that I can stay off for exactly two days :] Yes, two. It's a start. Any more than two then I'd probably go into Facebook shock.

Why must people get sick?

Why do people get sick?

Why is it that the most blessed, kind, and caring people in this world have to fall into sickness and distress?

And why can't we do anything about it?

2010.

So far, I feel the same as I did the last few days of 2009.

Like utter crap.

I've been contemplating my past decisions, and I wonder why I did some things I shouldn't have done. I know to others, my dilemma isn't "life threatening," but who cares. It is to me. I underestimated my capabilities, and I ended up getting what I initially wanted, but now that it sits in my hands, I want to throw it away. I think to myself, If I was able to actually get my wish granted, then I can get so much more.

I'm just sitting here trying to force myself to accept my fate. This is what I was meant to have, and now I must accept it.

It's 2010, and now I must make the best of it. 2010, watch out.

College.

Woah.

Applications and scholarships flying left and right.
Next thing you know, I'm walking down the aisle in my cap and gown.

BACK TO REALITY..


Should I stay at UNLV?

Let's go back.

Back to when life was simple and exciting.

I feel like every day I live is the same.

Wakeup
Get ready.
Get to school.
Get to sleep [in class].
Get to the next class.
Get out.

And go home.


What's new nowadays?


Oh, and what's the deal with Taylor Lautner?

I obviously don't see it.

Hesistant.

Need something to do.

Shout. Scream. Cry. Yell. Anything.

Why can't I speak my mind?


I'm sorry.