2010.

So far, I feel the same as I did the last few days of 2009.

Like utter crap.

I've been contemplating my past decisions, and I wonder why I did some things I shouldn't have done. I know to others, my dilemma isn't "life threatening," but who cares. It is to me. I underestimated my capabilities, and I ended up getting what I initially wanted, but now that it sits in my hands, I want to throw it away. I think to myself, If I was able to actually get my wish granted, then I can get so much more.

I'm just sitting here trying to force myself to accept my fate. This is what I was meant to have, and now I must accept it.

It's 2010, and now I must make the best of it. 2010, watch out.